Tristan’s appointment is this afternoon… less than 5 hours away.  I’m a bundle of nerves right now, I don’t know what to expect, and truly I don’t know what outcome I want.  I don’t want to hear that my son as a “problem”… but at the same time, what do I do if he says there’s nothing wrong?   Then what do I attribute the behaviour to – bad parenting?

And if he says that Tristan does have Asberger’s, ADHD, SPD, then it’s something that will affect Tristan for the rest of his life.  Hearing that there is something that can be done would be a comfort, but also a lifelong sentence.

So where do we go?  I’m trying not to worry too much right now, we still won’t have any concrete answers by the end of the day, but we’ll be on our way to getting some.  I see glimmers of this sweet little boy in Tristan and I hope that all of this misbehaviour is a phase.  Except that it’s not just agressive behaviour – there are the twitches, the mannerisms, the obsessive traits – what about those?

I hope that the doctor can make some sense of my little man today.  I desperately want to understand what is going on inside his head.