Coping

Some days I just feel like I really don’t know how to deal with Tristan at all.  He is completely unable to follow directions and it is infuriating.  I think I probably say his name 500 times a day and it does not phase him at all.  I tell him about 500 times a day not to throw his toys, he doesn’t listen.  I take the toys away – he doesn’t care, he’ll just start pushing furniture around.  I put him in his room and he just tears the room apart.  GRRRR!  I am just so frustrated today.  I try so hard to keep my emotions in check but some days (like today) I just can’t.

My mom gives me advice like, “Stop him from what he’s doing and look at him when you’re giving him directions.”  I know that she means well, but this just does not work with Tristan.  I feel like she thinks I’m just some clueless parent that doesn’t try and expects her children to be perfect.  I just feel like I have exhausted all advice and all avenues right now and I don’t know where to turn.

I know I keep whining, which is why I haven’t been posting much lately.  The referral has finally gone through so hopefully we can get the evaluation soon and get on some kind of path to sanity around here.  Even now I can still feel my blood pressure is high because Tristan made me so mad tipping the dining room chairs and jumping on the couch after I told him time after time after time to stop.

I just need some help….. maybe if I say it enough times someone will listen.